I suppose I wouldn't be making attempts at my own game by myself. Before I saw Touhou and ZUN's work, I was under the impression the only way my ideas would take form would be to get into the industry and convince a company to create my game. Looking back, I doubt I would have been successful and stuck in a career I wouldn't have liked.
So, I suppose in a way, Touhou helped me not waste my life... >.>;