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Tell Me Why I Should Remain Your Head Admin
E-Nazrin:
Oh, no. Why did it have to start again this way?
Phew... I've had this on my mind for a few days as well, and I was hoping to coordinate a better way to manage it, but... it looks like things broke. I could suggest some rules of engagement, but I'm not sure how well they'd work.
Here's to hoping this doesn't blow up too badly, or at least much worse.
..... I would like to be harsh about this, and hopefully fair, if I can handle it. But what with having emotions and all, I can't entirely guarantee it.
So I would like to ask: May I be harsh?
As part of this, here's part of the 'rules of engagement' I had in mind that I would like to be applied to my posts in this thread: If I word something here unreasonably, please, would one of the moderators take the offending segment, put it on pastebin or something, and try to reword it into something more neutral, while making the changed text also a link to the original version on pastebin for those that want to see it?
Gap and Purvis have outlined large parts of what I would like to say here - that some sort of civil discussion here should be able to come up with a better solution than lingering resentment, and that, sorry to say it, Fate is not entirely blameless in this matter.
I want to work this out. I really do. I've been scheming in the background the past few days about how to go about this. Discussed it with a few other staff members, for that matter. This really isn't how I wanted to start it. But I'm going to try and see it through. Let's see if what I've learned is of any use.....
N-Forza:
Honestly, I don't see where the hate is coming from. Maybe I'm oblivious, or maybe it's just because I don't talk in the IRC channels, and I was fairly busy during the whole April Fools' fiasco, but I rarely see any criticism, constructive or otherwise, levied at you outside of these kinds of threads. I understand you're stressed from real life and the whole April Fools thing went over like a lead-filled balloon, but like Purvis said, I think part of the problem is paranoia. Even to those who are belly-aching about the way you handle things, if they're just being jerks, ignoring them would be the best course of action, because they're probably hypocrites anyway. You aren't going to make everyone happy regardless, and if they were REALLY unhappy with you, they'd leave the forums or IRC entirely.
So basically, from my point of view, a lot of people need to chill out. Just forget the April Fools fiasco, be more open about opinions, stop acting so uptight, and don't make accusations without evidence. Not taking things for granted is important too, but it's poor form to go fishing for compliments too, unless it's an extreme case like this.
Solais:
Well, maybe I should tell my story, how I got associated with things here. I'm not a good speaker, by nature, but I try what I can. I was here for three months when I first got to notice you, and that specified minority did urged me to hate you. I felt comfortably in the safe heaven of CPMC, what you then tried to destroy. Then, my other safe heaven, #meido. I felt that I hated you, and I was afraid to ask you, "why?".
It was the very friends and supporters of you in this forum - those who make me feel that I'm lucky enough to call them friends too - who told me the answer to my question, "Why?". They were the one who taught me how to see the reason beyond everything that seems wrong. And in the end, during this whole April Fools mess, I could say out loud, that I don't hate you, but respect you deeply enough to show my signs of respect - to call you a "she" , as I have told all members of #meido, that this is the greatest sign of my respect for you, just because of the fact that we don't really know each other. And I do feel that I owe you a great apology for my hatred in the past.
I don't write this in the behalf of me - as I barely know you - but all those I've seen being depressed, even after all those weeks you've left. It's not just me I want you to come back, but all those who already voiced their opinion in this thread before me, I'm nothing but a part of the great thing what you have created.
And just like the others said, the choice is yours, but I suggest too, that maybe you should be just a normal member first. Maybe all those newbies who don't know you and are in the same pool as I was, would know that you're not the tyrant what the minorities make them to believe, but a very decent girl. Just like what the great Hungarian ruler, King Mathias the Righteous did.
FinnKaenbyou:
And here I was about to start a Post Here To Wait With Open Arms For TSO To Return thread on CPMMMMC.
TSO, I think you're really underestimating yourself. You haven't realised just how many people here are rooting for you, hoping that you'll come back and become part of the community again. If people had really been so thoroughly disgusted by the April Fool's joke, isn't it more logical to think they'd have just voted with their feet and stopped visiting? And yet we're still here, because just like you we value this community.
Personally, I owe you a good deal of gratitude. You were the first and loudest voice trying to help me when I was being distraught. You honestly wanted to help me, so I know for a fact you're a good person. You just seem horribly insecure and afraid you aren't doing a good job.
I wonder, though. You're afraid that people don't see you as a person, just a puppeteer running things behind the scenes. So prove them wrong and start joining in with the stuff everyone else is doing. Play along with the text adventures in RPG, read stuff in PSL, comment in TARC or post in CPMC, anything like that. If a temporary step-down from head admin is necessary to really get that going, then I'm all for it. (Emphasis on 'temporary', though.)
In short, I don't want to see you so thoroughly unhappy about how things are going, TSO. And no-one else here does either. I won't lie, most days I would look at your profile and see if you had come back to post yet.
A little exercise, if you'll forgive me. TSO, just read this page for a while. Read all the words people are offering you, words of thanks and congratulations for what you've made of MotK. Now, pat yourself on the back and congratulate yourself for every happy poster. You deserve commendment like that after all your hard work, even if you yourself find it hard to believe sometimes. =3
Nemo★Ma:
Remember, to be an admin of a forum, firstly you must become a member of the forum.
The reason why lots of people falls for the trick on April Fools is because they believed the ragepost and you are really selling the domain for $1200 (A large amount of money).
However, if you spend more time on the forum, like random posting or replying, maybe people will not fall for the joke because no one will going to sell her only home for some money.
Recently a member called Komari*Kamitika posted something "silly" in CPMC about putting stars in your nicknames. Which I found to be very interesting.
So why not just relax, (maybe put stars in your nicknames as well), and having fun, not as an admin, but a normal member. Not only on IRC, but the forums too. All the management can wait.
PS: Thanks for the usergroup, and I forgive you after reading this post, people generally has stereotypes against admins. It's the admin's job to break this stereotype.