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| UncertainJakutten:
--- Quote ---lolbipolar = sux. More often it's the depressed part that's getting to me, but the past few days have shown the problems with the other side of it. But which is worse? --- End quote --- Yeesh...bipolar... And manic is only a little dangerous. It can be harnessed for a great amount of...awesome I guess. Depressive likewise, is only a little dangerous. You usually are too unmotivated to actually hurt yourself It's the inbetween that makes bipolar deadly. Manic enough to do it, depressive enough to want to. Hurt yourself I mean. As it happens...I've taken a few psych classes and know a few CBT things...maybe I can try to help you out a little that way? --- Quote ---Okay, that works. Safe word and all that. Guess I have trouble accepting that amount of trust... or don't like the thought of 'use' that I'd normally consider abuse. Or unhealthy outside of the relationship? I don't know, something like that. Hm. --- End quote --- Well, we get a bit weird here. Just know that I am not afraid to say no, I just choose not to much of the time. --- Quote ---'course, considering this is just an online contest with minimal outside consequences and I don't think I'd enjoy subjecting you to much (especially that you haven't done already on your own, apparently), I'm not sure how much of that is just posturing. And whether it's true or not I'm not sure I'd like to take you up on it, especially in that fashion. --- End quote --- Hmm? well, it's intriguing you keep bringing up it's a contest. And don't worry about "doing things I've already done". Repeat performances are always fun ^-^. And if you wouldn't like to take me up on some of my more extreme tastes...it's ok...I'll work at your pace...after all...isn't love understanding your partner and accepting they aren't perfect, yet loving them despite that? I think you'd be very fun to be with, Mus ^-^ |
| UncertainJakutten:
At any rate, we are getting a bit tied up in the submission/dominance aspect. Let's unworry about that for now. What I'd like to know is what anime you like, if any. I mean, it's as good a place to start as any ^-^. |
| E-Nazrin:
Books arrived. Yay. --- Quote from: UncertainKitten on October 08, 2009, 01:16:49 AM ---Yeesh...bipolar... And manic is only a little dangerous. It can be harnessed for a great amount of...awesome I guess. Depressive likewise, is only a little dangerous. You usually are too unmotivated to actually hurt yourself It's the inbetween that makes bipolar deadly. Manic enough to do it, depressive enough to want to. Hurt yourself I mean. --- End quote --- That's the most openly deadly part, yes, but the others hurt you as well. And not all harm is physical, humiliation fetishism should show that, right? You can seriously hurt yourself with mania or depression, just not the same way; I scraped my knees badly being manic about thinking I could ride a bike down a steep hill since I did it once months ago, and if I had a car odds are good I'd be several thousand in repayment debt or dead if that incident repeated itself. Middle ground is most dangerous for intentionally and overtly harming yourself, but mania can get you openly hurt just because you're being full of yourself. And depression meaning not doing anything is only part of it; you ARE doing something, it just tends to be, uh, hating/feeling sorry for yourself rather than anything visible or productive. So you're just lazy. Or is that one of my excuses for laziness? I don't want to know, since it probably is! Or is that just the depression talking? Either way, being depressed can easily end with being cast away as useless by social/financial standards. They're all dangerous, just in different ways. The worse part about bipolar is that it makes which part to deal with unpredictable; mania needs to be reigned in, but doing that would make depression worse, wouldn't it? And depending on what the person is supposed to be doing, or the personality they feel they're supposed to present at the time, how certain is it that the current mood isn't a front? And this is without looking into the subconsciousness parts of it... I should really do that sometime. ..... yet, strangely... I remember doing several of the things I'm most proud of when both somewhat depressed and hyper... or at least, that I was proud of at the time, after less than perfectly glowing praise made me back away from them... --- Quote ---As it happens...I've taken a few psych classes and know a few CBT things...maybe I can try to help you out a little that way? --- End quote --- I'm a psych major looking into a tolerate/positive-psychology-esque topic for my thesis. But maybe I forgot the basics. :V --- Quote ---Well, we get a bit weird here. Just know that I am not afraid to say no, I just choose not to much of the time. --- End quote --- Works. --- Quote from: UncertainKitten on October 08, 2009, 01:44:03 AM ---At any rate, we are getting a bit tied up in the submission/dominance aspect. Let's unworry about that for now. What I'd like to know is what anime you like, if any. I mean, it's as good a place to start as any ^-^. --- End quote --- Man I haven't really watched anime in years. I'm actually pretty easy to please; some that come to mind are Azumanga, TTGL (as others here are more than aware of), Ranma 1/2, Slayers, and what I've seen of Yakitake!! Japan. Probably others I'd enjoy if I bothered with it, but I keep getting distracted with what 'I'd' do with the story and wandering off to ponder for no reason. Been reading manga more, recently... --- Quote from: also ---(9:50:08 PM) UltrosCMC: How far is this thing supposed to go? Is cybering next~? (9:57:45 PM) UltrosCMC: *poke* (9:57:56 PM) E mouse2000: I'm going to post that. (9:58:41 PM) UltrosCMC: Heehee. (9:59:09 PM) UltrosCMC: Let her know your boyfriends looks forward to seeing how it turns out :P (9:59:12 PM) UltrosCMC: *boyfriend (9:59:37 PM) E mouse2000: This is both wonderful and terrible. (10:00:03 PM) UltrosCMC: *lick* I'm off for a nap. Enjoy your naughty talk. --- End quote --- |
| UncertainJakutten:
--- Quote ---That's the most openly deadly part, yes, but the others hurt you as well. And not all harm is physical, humiliation fetishism should show that, right? You can seriously hurt yourself with mania or depression, just not the same way; I scraped my knees badly being manic about thinking I could ride a bike down a steep hill since I did it once months ago, and if I had a car odds are good I'd be several thousand in repayment debt or dead if that incident repeated itself. Middle ground is most dangerous for intentionally and overtly harming yourself, but mania can get you openly hurt just because you're being full of yourself. --- End quote --- I was vaguely aware of this. I meant that they were less dangerous for a reason. --- Quote ---And depression meaning not doing anything is only part of it; you ARE doing something, it just tends to be, uh, hating/feeling sorry for yourself rather than anything visible or productive. So you're just lazy. Or is that one of my excuses for laziness? I don't want to know, since it probably is! Or is that just the depression talking? Either way, being depressed can easily end with being cast away as useless by social/financial standards. --- End quote --- Again, less dangerous. Of course internalizing negative talk is rather bad. --- Quote ---They're all dangerous, just in different ways. The worse part about bipolar is that it makes which part to deal with unpredictable; mania needs to be reigned in, but doing that would make depression worse, wouldn't it? And depending on what the person is supposed to be doing, or the personality they feel they're supposed to present at the time, how certain is it that the current mood isn't a front? --- End quote --- Yeah...do you take lithium or whatever? --- Quote ---..... yet, strangely... I remember doing several of the things I'm most proud of when both somewhat depressed and hyper... or at least, that I was proud of at the time, after less than perfectly glowing praise made me back away from them... --- End quote --- Would it be bad if I asked for elaboration? --- Quote ---I'm a psych major looking into a tolerate/positive-psychology-esque topic for my thesis. But maybe I forgot the basics --- End quote --- My specialty is actually gender and affirmation and the like, but I can splash --- Quote --- I'm actually pretty easy to please; some that come to mind are Azumanga, TTGL (as others here are more than aware of), Ranma 1/2, Slayers, and what I've seen of Yakitake!! Japan. Probably others I'd enjoy if I bothered with it, but I keep getting distracted with what 'I'd' do with the story and wandering off to ponder for no reason. Been reading manga more, recently... --- End quote --- Ranma 1/2 is hilarious. I love Takahashi. TTGL of course is amazing. I'm even running a mafia game with that theme on another site. Azu Manga I NEED TO WATCH! And yeah, readning manga is good. As for your boyfriend, just let him know that I plan to so totally have you infatuated with me he forgets my name. You can be certain of this. Well, what other things interest you? |
| E-Nazrin:
--- Quote from: UncertainKitten on October 08, 2009, 02:11:58 AM ---I was vaguely aware of this. I meant that they were less dangerous for a reason. Again, less dangerous. Of course internalizing negative talk is rather bad. --- End quote --- Guess you have a point about the depression part. I guess a more valid point about that one is that it reinforces itself if left alone, where eventually you get a painful external reminder with mania whether it seeks you out or not. Still, death isn't the only (and yes I dare say it, not necessarily the worst) thing to worry about. Like murder, for example. Hm, depression is probably the least dangerous to others, but it can make you a real drain on the world in general. --- Quote ---Yeah...do you take lithium or whatever? --- End quote --- Lamictal and a very small dose of antidepressants, like my mother. The antidepressant part is somewhat flexible, in case of persistent mood problems. I usually only take like 5mg but that's half of a 10 capsule so yeah. Or something. --- Quote ---Would it be bad if I asked for elaboration? --- End quote --- About mixed-mood stuff I'm proud of? Well... creative pursuits, mostly. Like the climax of my 150-page fanficti... wait, damnit, where's the link for it again? Hell. THERE it is. And several highlights from Waking up from the Dream, which I am somewhat ashamed of getting involved in at first but I think I'm doing a good job with writing there, at least. Though the main highlights there, again, tend to reflect the mixed condition. --- Quote ---My specialty is actually gender and affirmation and the like, but I can splash --- End quote --- Mmm, my specialty is... I'm not sure what my specialty is, I haven't really looked at one. Probably closer to social/evolutionary psychology, that's part of what interested me in positive psychology. Morals making sense is a BEAUTIFUL thing. But to work towards that you need to work out some kinks in traditional human psychology that continue to get in the way... --- Quote ---As for your boyfriend, just let him know that I plan to so totally have you infatuated with me he forgets my name. You can be certain of this. --- End quote --- I think you meant more like "I forget his name" by that word scramble, in which case no, that's probably not happening. I've met him in person, for one. :< --- Quote ---Well, what other things interest you? --- End quote --- I tend to have a narrow band of interests, but the contents shift regularly. Some sort of MMO is usually on the list, and always SOME sort of chat/forum since that's my primary social network. Regular visitors are random video games, often RPGs, either freeware or pirated <N64 <DS ROMs. Manga get read randomly as distractions while I'm pretending to do other things (what happened to my laserlike focus...?), though I rarely actually get any new ones. Been borrowing stuff from a local friend on occasion, though. And you? |
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