I'm still getting the impression that you're taking this whole Easy-1cc and practicing-spellcards matter way too hard. There's absolutely no need to do so.
First things first, no one, literally no one here will ever look down on you for playing on Easy, please remember that. Even I belong to the folks here who still regularly play on Easy/Normal and have already engaged longer in the Touhou community than some current Lunatic players. I'm sure that this is some heavy misinterpretation on your side, the community here consists of players of all skill levels who are willing to help each other.
Secondly, you'll need time to practice the solutions that we've been trying to offer to you. No one is going to pressure you in showcasing your runs, you do them whenever you feel like it. Honestly, it's practically impossible to be instantly good at anything, thus I sincerely hope that you'll take the pieces of advice here to your heart and at least attempt them a couple of times before coming up with an empty claim that isn't really backed by anything evident. If you've been stuck while trying to figure out certain strategies, be it survival, scoring, resource gain or anything, be it our solutions or your own strategies, we'll be more than glad to help you out.
Thirdly, please try to keep your posts rational. I'm not saying at all that your opinion isn't allowed here, of course it is, but at least try to tone down your wording a bit (i.e. the usage of swear words when you're being serious about something) or people are going to misunderstand what you've been trying to say. Also please stop trying to accuse people for seemingly arbitrary reasons, much like in this thread where we've been trying to take a look at situations from your perspective so we can help you, but you still appear to be way too pressured about this. Don't be. Throwing around accusations isn't going to help anyone, and can seriously anger people sooner or later at worst. Best thing would be really to take some deep breaths and not take this whole matter way too seriously. You'll keep humiliating youself if this keeps up. Be more open for negotiations with people around here, and your psychological stress will be gone eventually.