I have spent the last four hours playing Touhou, trying to do perfects. Over time after being thwarted again and again, I started getting a headache. My eyes unfocused, my heart continuously pounded, and I was literally rambling like a madman.
Yet I didn't stop.
I went for Ichirin, then Murasa, then Murasa again, then I tried Murasa a bit more, and that fucking unfair third non-spell thwarted every attempt, except for the 1DNB that was caused by Sinkable Vortex.
Yet I didn't stop.
Then I went for Reimu, who I've had my eyes on a perfect for ages. Every attempt thwarted at either Fantasy Seal Spread or Fantasy Seal Dark, except for the ones by Demon Binding Ring. Loss after loss after loss.
Yet I didn't stop.
Eventually, when my eyes were unfocused and I was giving up on trying to perfect the stage along with Reimu (since I have it pretty well down) and I was calmly humming
Kiss Me Sweet while the intense music was playing, I came to realize: THIS was why I got into Touhou, and why I'm still playing two and a half years later. Few games can cause such frustration and yet are able to keep stringing me along. I love Touhou because it hates me. The rut I've been in since I perfected Kaguya was because I started expecting to get anywhere on a run. My standards rose too high. Spending an entire day playing the same stage, with the faint hope that the one run that will justify so many hours of playing will happen, such days have become too seldom. This is why I love this series.
Just then, I perfected Reimu. And I am still grinning. No replay, since I did the stage badly. And no, I didn't capture Blink. Screw you if you think that matters, because that's not the point.
^_^