Having a threesome with Flan and Remi is one of the main reason I practice lucid dreaming.
Thou cans lucid dreams too? thats epic. we should discuss lucid dreaming techniques sometime. i use the standard "alarm clock prior to REM" method.
anyway, a touhou related dream this morning.
was sitting in cafe, drinking tea with Maribel. i dont remember the whole conversation, but i remember one part, it went like this:
Me: "...so, if your abilities can be passed on hereditaryly, you should have as many children as possible..." <i said with a suggestive tone>
Maribel: <looks at me with a rather non-plussed look>
me: "...then eventually, centuries later, half of the human population will share similiar abilities as you, and the likes of you wont be alone ever! hahaha!"
Maribel: <she ponders this with a slight blush> are you suggesting something?
Me: <with a grin> i'm just stating an obvious solution.
Maribel: well, i think the problem is deeper than just the number of humans with enchanced abilities. even if my grandchildren also share the same potential as me, they may not be aware of it, and they may not even master the ability at all. a master's children, may not neccessarily share that mastery, only the potential. soon that ability could lie dormant forever in some bloodlines.
me: <nods in agreement>
maribel: but i think the real problem is that people are not satisfied with their own ability. and envying at other's ability. so many people get on with life, leaving their talents unattended. they live their life making a living, doing ordinary things, adhering to the social norm, feeling unsatisfied, instead of focusing on
cherishing their own specialness and
living their life. <says in a heartfelt tone>
so, barasia<not my real name lol> please dont forget about your own specialness okay? <holds my hand and looks me endearingly me in the eye>
by this time, i became lucid naturally, as the scene awakens the emotional side of me.
me:......y-yes. i understand that. but i truly believe this....
<i became my serious self, as i become lucid, i know i dont have much time left. Maribel looks at me odd, as if i suddenly changed into a different person...which is true, when you are lucid>
while it is true that people have their own specific purpose in their lifetime, and being granted specific abilities, circumstances and so forth by God, i truly believe that anyone's potential is
unlimited! ....
<i spoke in a confident, passionate, lucid manner. like all lucid dreamers do, trying to impress dream figures, real or imaginary>
Maribel: <looks at me strange> i can
see that....
me: ...those who have completed their purpose will gain the freedom to unlock their true potential and be whoever they want!
<i was getting really excited by now, as every single word, visual sight, sound, Maribel's face, and her succinct voice gets burned into memory and realness of the experience>
Maribel: <smiles> oh my, aren't we hyped up. calm down!....
me: ok ok......<i try my best to keep in control, dumbing down the sensations lest i awake. >
Maribel:.... even though its true that in our ideal state of being we are unlimited, it wont serve very well to experience Everything at once. better to focus on particular life at a time right? anyway, didn't you originally want to ask me about your ability and purpose?
Me:.....<since i'm lucid, i have an inkling about myself, but i let her tell me anyway, i wonder what new thing i can discover about myself> sure. go ahead.
Maribel: <stares at me intently for a moment, making feel abit uncomfortable> .........
Self awareness...
me:
i already know that. though it sounds like a half-ass ability, i admit i have a bad habit of over analysing almost EVERY thought process and stimuli i have. though everyone is self aware, i seem to indulge in it.
Maribel: dont be too hard on yourself. its an endearing trait. i give you that much < she smiles cutely, which my heart twist>.
even though you already know
exactly what you are doing or saying and why oyu are doing it, one thing you haven't mastered yet is..
Me:wait. dont tell me. its Self Control. i am aware of myself doing things, but i admit i dont have hte discipline to change my actions/habits when i
should.
Maribel: <looking impressed> Good. a good effort. but not entirely accurate.
Me: Oh? <i said panicly. what else could it be? time is running out, as i am losing lucidity, as small details around me seem to fade.>
Maribel: its not discipline you are lacking. its direction. you have no destination in mind. and so you wander. being almost everything and everywhere, yet, getting
nowhere. <she says sagely>
i lost lucidity then, so i dont remember what happen next, but those moments were burned into my memory, and was the frist thing i wrote down as i woke.
<3 Maribel! i think she is a good psychiatrist.