So I was playing SA normal wanting to get some runs in. Since that is important to get a feel for the full game. Things were going okay. I made some grazing mistakes, but nothing I'd cry over. I entered stage 4, so basically I entered the part of the game I am super inconsistent at. Stage 4 has a lot of execution. It's pretty hard, and I am nowhere near optimal either. Good thing I don't need to be. To be honest, I half expected to die in the second half. To my surprise I didn't. I entered Satori, and again, I didn't die to DBDB. What did I die to instead? safepotting BoWaP. probably one of the silliest ways to lose a run, but I kept going, wanting to finish the game. Stage 5 is also rather difficult. I assume mostly due to lack of practice though. I learnt the route and the fight and practiced each just a bit. However, again, I didn't die to things I expected to die against. One was the first half with rhe orbs. In normalmode scoring, you have to PoC the items yourself and speedkill them. Now, this sounds hard, but at 3+ power, it's actually really easy once you know how to PoC (which I do). I am actually not sure what killed me - I wasn't paying attention to Reimu, but rather the orbs I was trying to go under. I assume it was a stray red bullet. Now, I died one more time to the popcorn section. I can "live" with that death. It's nothing super hard, but you have no power to bomb when in danger (you spend 4 bombs on the midboss and time it out) and inattention will still kill you, even on normal. Both the second and the third death didn't affect me nearly as much as the first one did since I didn't have much base PiV yet, though dying so much hindered me from finishing with full lives.
You know, dying in SA scoring (outside of loonie) is pretty much a reset. You will absolutely never want to die. It resets your base-piv (I was at 78k when I died to BoWaP and fell back to 50k - with the 23k graze I had after BoWaP, this is a multiplier of over 3, so I lost million and million of points because of that) and not only did I only die once, no I died thrice. Now, why is this important? Because I got a PB. And it makes me feel sour. I mean, don't get me wrong: PB is PB, but the fact that I got 780m on a run that wasn't supposed to go anywhere. Now, 780 isn't some super score. Hell, it isn't even good, but it just fucking irks me so much. I don't even know why. How much would I have gotten with 1 death less? with only dying once? with no deaths? I don't know. No deaths would have probably carried me to around 1b, though. Irrelevant. I don't even know why I care so much. I confuse myself.
I don't even know why I am posting this. I probably shouldn't.