So lately I've been training myself in the art of Zen Touhou playing. The ability to enjoy and remain calm even in failure. I wish to be able to play Touhou with a positive mindset when I lose, rather than getting angry every single time I make a mistake. So far the road has been bumpy, but I think I can achieve true Zen. I feel that once I correct my mindset, I could do anything in Touhou. I've mostly been playing EoSD lately.
I've been drilling EoSD and trying to perform well under the conditions of LNB and MarisaA. MarisaA's patchy fight is silly, having 4 hard spells and only 1 easy one. But it's a challenge I'm willing to accept. For some reason, I enjoy playing EoSD with MarisaA. I feel right at home with her. It's satisfying. I'm also better at Sakuya and Remilia in general with MarisaA. I guess it's due to increased power.
I find beauty in the older Touhou games. EoSD, PCB, etc. For some reason, I feel more comfortable trying to excel in those game. (Though DDC is an exception. I want to main ReimuB in that game and be able to be good at survival with her).
As for scoring, I still haven't forgotten about that. But for some reason I haven't really been in the mood to score. I wonder if I dislike the effort it takes to score. Well, I know it can't be that. Learning new things and devising routes and strategies is fun. I don't even think I'll stop at Lunatic mode. PCB Normal mode also seems interesting. I've just been in the mood to take it light.
I severely dislike being rushed to get achievements. I feel that if I can't take it slow and enjoy the ride, then there's no point in playing. I've been trying to rush "LNNN" for such a long time, especially now that a lot of other people have gotten it. I feel it's best to score in PCB rather than go for LNNN. Since LNNN really is just getting that one miracle run, there's not much point in grinding for it nonstop when I can easily get it in a random, casual attempt. I KNOW I can do it. I've gotten to Yuyuko four times and lost out of pure nervousness. All it takes is for me to get lucky. I won't give up. There's no reason to.
So far, my best PCB Lunatic score is a mere 1.7bil. I still have many things to work on and master. My stage 4 is still really bad. And I need to get my early game routes worked out and polished. I also really, really need to learn the Yuyuko spell milking grazes, since they are one of the most important parts of the game for scoring. They call her Yuyucow for a reason. But watching people like Yu-suke, HS, Naya, and SoC really inspire me. I think that I should go for SakuyaB as well once I reach my ReimuB goal, which is 2.6bil. Then I might do normal as well.
PCB is going to be my main game. Sure, I may not be an expert now. But if I keep at it... one day.... just one day...